I can't get away from them . i only remember negative things and they pop up in my memory almost constantly even when i think im feeling okay . the more memories i get popping up i start to have thoughts telling me to kill myself . how do i block these menories and why do i never remember good things ? I need to shut off from this . they shut off if im watching a movie but then they come back . i refuse to believe that i never had any good memories but my mind only lets me remember mistakes I've made or people that have hurt me . surely my whole life hasn't been one giant big mistake ? Surely there's something positive in my past . why wont my mind let me remember those things ? What should i do ?