I'd rather have these side effects/symptoms than risk my education because I'm unstable for an undetermined time while trying to find new meds. Probably sounds really silly, but that's what is pressuring me to just make it work.

I have thought briefly of asking to be put on something like lithium or another mood stabilizer so I can go off Lamictal slowly, then add another medication like carbamazepine, then taper off the lithium or whatever mood stabilizer. I just know you can combine certain meds for better results or at least combine them in a safe way (lithium being the one that is often mixed so you don't have to use as much of it).

I'm just too scared to interject my opinions on medications. My doctors know I know a lot about them, and I do make some suggestions or recommendations but I don't know how to just say, "This isn't working, I want that."

Honestly though, I am scared of changing medications. My life has improved so much over the last 9 months or so and I don't think I could deal with what would inevitably ensue if I were to change medications.

My fear lately has been that the anti-seizure meds could be messing me up neurologically. I worry every time these symptoms get worse, thinking I'm going to have a seizure or something. Probably silly, but it's just a growing fear.