I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Sisabel I understand your pain. I have tried several therapists as well. It can take time. I completely agree with what piggy momma has already wisely said better than I ever could. It seems like this isn't the right fit for you. Please keep looking for one if you can. I feel like it may really help you. I'm glad those self-help books are helping you out a bit! Keep reading them if you can. Do you want to share why are you not sure about a local support group? If you want to, of course. Have you had bad experiences in the past? Either way, I'd suggest to try it as well if you prefer it. Perhaps you'll have better luck there! Keep trying. Keep looking. I hope you'll be able to find the right fit for you. Remember that different methods work for different people. Perhaps there are other types of therapy that you could look into. Perhaps you could look for other completely different methods. There's nothing to be ashamed of. Whathever may work for you and it may help you to feel better. You're a wonderful person, Sisabel. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Please don't give up. Try to hang on. Be kind to yourself, Sisabel. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Sisabel. You don't deserve to suffer at all