I continue on... I wait and continue.. today at work I didn't have very agitated thoughts as I did prior...
I see one doc to see another and some may think this is too much not really- no insurance for a year or more and have some issues that aren't all in my head. Some issues I should had probably addressed prior.

Answer today: I do have cyst acne, and I took the leap to accept assistance with it... last T and I would talk on this, general doc currently a few times brought it up as well... and here I am like, what does it Matter? Yes, I do feel better if my skin is clear, but this stuff isn't going away any more... so I will take the treatment.

I got something removed that has bothered me emotionally and negatively since I was 16.. silly thing... Another plus I thought of today was: for those times I've wondered "is it cancer?" The. Down in the dumps, " it probably is " -will no longer hold a -what if - as it's being tested and I am pretty sure it's nothing! . Honestly I am not sure if anyone understands that but that's a part of me.

I am to see gyno tomorrow as a cyst that's came about, yes due to stress, has emerged. I was hoping since November cyst got misplaced, this one could be taken but idk now... but hey by the derm looking at it gyno took that as consultation ((I didn't know that!)).. any who my cat is happy to be home, yes I mentioned that but I am happy he is back.
I am a little sad that I am not taking an opportunity at work because I've been so stressed and am a little scared of leaving home right now... but I must do what is best for my health all around. And I may have another opportunity later.