Do you share that dream with me?
I always missed to belong to a group to fit in. Call it family, call it family friends. Being nothing else and nothing more that one part of it. I valuable part, with her characteristics, her personality and being accepted in my differences and my similarities. Only enjoyed it in my childhood but still I had a feeling of inferiority.
My social anxiety, my insecurities always prevent me from enjoying something like this. I was close to have it several occasions and I swear that there were one of the best moments in my life. I got afraid of being discovered in my own inabilities and insecurities, so I ran away. I sabotaged myself. I got afraid of calling the attention for my lack of skills and my anxiety.
Each time, I see a group of people in life, on TV...I have such a feeling of sadness for what I never had the guts to get (sorry my language).