I'm not talking about a person I've lost. No, it's a job - right after studying I found an awesome job with amazing coworkers, for which I had moved to an exciting new town. I was there for 3 years, then they sadly shut down. I found something else but the difference was extreme - I was very unhappy at first. Later managed to improve some things and everything was 'ok' but I still very much missed the old job.

It's now been almost 3 years since I left that great first job and I can tell that I'm still not really over it. I've been trying to find a similar job and now that I actually have an interview coming up I can feel hopelessness washing over me and thoughts like 'I won't get it anyway' or 'even if I do, it surely won't be as good'. Generally I still often wish I could just return to that happy time and kinda feel like I will never be that happy again, almost like my life is already over.

I'm young and logically I know I will probably be happy again but I feel like I'm not even open to giving life another chance. How do I stop this senseless pining for a time that is over?