Damn, my whole message disappeared. Saw the Physio. Referred to a specialist. Really need treatment to get my leg working properly again. I need to get back to work ASAP. Random important bills are draining my savings. Ironically I could see if work would take me back now as Bipolar and Fibromyalgia under control but I now can’t with this leg. Sigh...

Still panicked. My T gave me some exercises which help. It seems to be calming but I still can’t focus. In the process of making massive life decisions but I can’t even contact University to tell them I’ve dropped out due to anxiety. I haven’t been this anxious for years.

My T and I agreed I am stable Bipolar wise which is encouraging. I thought I was getting depressed a bit back but it seems it was the beginning of this life crisis. My mood today is positive and fairly happy. Just hate the crushing anxious feeling. I am focusing on finding a new path for my life. I have hope, though I still self destruct in some ways.