How do I confuse a fist to my face?

How do I hallucinate broken bones?

What I'm seeing is there and people make a point of making sure I know it - they wouldn't allow me to ignore it if I wanted to.

"Anxiety" requires uncertainly at its core; there is nothing uncertain about how people think of me. In fact, your impulse to say I'm hallucinating a delusional behavior that isn't there is precisely the kind of contempt I suffer from. Why do you think I'm stupid or easily fooled? Whatever made you think this line of thinking is precisely why people disrespect, fear, and hate me. Tell me why you think this way, and it would go a long way to uncover the world's behavior.