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The only hint of difference is their random emotions - the way people's emotions change randomly every instant, two people mathematically cannot hold the same emotion at the same time. But the same trait makes them extremely dangerous; they could seem calm one moment, but flip into a violent rage the next - and there's no way to either predict when this will occur or determine what triggers it.
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When someone grows up in an environment where this is what they experience in their family, it's very hard to distance from seeing other people that way. This is what children begin to think as normal human behavior.
I believe you, I believe that you have been treated badly, that you have suffered abuse and you have reached a point where you have no trust in humanity. I can see you have a lot of anger and resentment in you too. That you have started to no longer see other faces and other people but instead you are grouping all people together and how so many people need to be punished.
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I must stop people from hating me and lying to me or die trying, because their behavior will kill me outright if they don't stop. Because they will never consent to stop abusing me, they must be crushed and brought to heel forcibly.
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This is a very bad state of mind to gravitate to because this is the mindset that individuals who end up taking all their pent up anger out on ANYONE and they just want to detroy. Then when the dust settles, people find out how many of these victims were caring kind INNOCENT people.
It's very possible that you live in an area where people practice toxic behaviors, and I have read and heard about how incredibly toxic certain areas of California can be and also that it's an extremely expensive state to live in. People are stressed and frustrated because it can be hard to self sustain in some areas of your state. That is not indicitive of the entire country or ALL PEOPLE.
If you don't mind my asking how old are you? That can help with seeing what your pier group is like.