I'm so sorry to hear that InnerZone. I know it's awful to go through that and work yourself up to be let down. Cry it out. I always try not to cry, but I don't know why. Just let it out. The frustration ,sadness, the anger -- just let the tears flow and be hopeful for the next thing (which is not easy and impossible in the beginning, but hope will return sooner or later).

BirdDancer -- I hope you get the information you're looking for and also, keep an eye on your mood. I mean I'm rather new at mood tracking but knowing patterns and signs are invaluable to your therapist and psychiatrist. I know you probably already know that anyway. I feel stupid for even saying it now. haha



As for me -- I had another rough night. I didn't sleep much and did lots of reflecting and thinking. I think too much is the problem -- I obsess. I'm tired today but I'm OK. I still feel OK -- I think these meds are great for me. I can't explain how I feel well. I'm OK but I'm distressed, does that make sense? Mood wise -- I'm fine... it's all the crap in my life and head that causes some worry and distress, and emotions. Anyway, that's all for my check in today.