hhhmmmm....I have an Eastern philosophy with regard to life, so I don't know that I can agree with the idea that society dictates how we act with an iron fist. Anyway, I don't think that is the important part here...

I don't hate you. I can actually relate to a lot of what you're saying. I came from a very abusive family. I'm not saying that this is true for you, but it was true for me, my family made me hate life and hate people. Everyone was mean, nasty, and out for themselves no matter the cost. I was taught that I had to hurt or risk being hurt.

My family is the cause of my C-PTSD. I was constantly in a defensive posture, ready to do battle at the first sign of someone doing something that might hurt me. I was a bitter, angry young man. At some point, I had decided that society was so horrible and I couldn't fight against it, that I tried to kill myself.

Again, that's just the effect that it had on me.