But you don't respect me - you can't; as a human being you lack the faculty at the neurological level. You will hate me; it's only a matter of time.


If my problems only came from my family, I would have radically better prospects.

My peers are just as abusive as my family was - that's the problem. There is no one who isn't abusive to me; human toxicity is universal. It is the fact that people are exclusively toxic - that zero humans treat me as an equal - that is the source of my pain. My family I can leave behind, but I'm surrounded by humanity. As long as humanity decides I am not its equal, I will always be in danger.

Thanks to humanity, I no longer have the option of continuing to live - they have inflicted injuries on me that will kill me in less than thirteen months. They have shown how far they're willing to go to eliminate what they delusionally consider a threat. Negotiating a compromise is no longer an option - it seems it never was, and my life's efforts have been a waste.