I just read over whatever I wrote in that last post. I find anthropology hard because it's based on learning concepts about people.. But I'm more about consciousness.. That's why I don't like talking about history or world events in the news.. I want to know deeper than what regular people think.. not just arguing about measles shots. Like I don't consider myself to care about opposing opinions based on government propaganda.. especially the kavanah thing.... that took up all the news.. I cared 0% about that.. but everyone was so tuned in..

That seems really creepy to me.. It's like I'm not tuned into the fake reality.. I said that heroin injection sites are good but that's about it..

I want to take philosophy instead and just talk and talk for a never ending curving around and into the meaningful things that people don't realize... vegetating on news media.. free will doesn't exist for most of the population.. they are controlled and brainwashed and it seems like just a play, a set where they have a certain list of things they need to do in life.. but what is life? Plants, animals.. but life as I mean that "I have no life". Well you're alive right? Make the connections of what is it of why you exist.. shut off for years then have a relationship crisis and go "Omg this is so terrible" But what really is terrible? It wouldn't have been terrible if you we're so plugged into societies expectations of what you should do and the products that you are advertised to consume.. the brainwashing of that is known.. but people double percept and go along with what ever is fun.. fun or saving money? Living simple because I know what depression is.. but it's a depression for a reason... because I knew about the system.. what's the point? We all know the 1% are at the top so I'm an anarchist, except i don't care to do anything just like how someone is overweight but doesn't care to do anything about it. It's not content.

What I want is complete content in ratio to the small problems that I can overcome for my own self to push forward.