I want a better life. So I have to make choices. But I don't know because there's so many choices. Everyone faces this problem.

A teacher told me today that her children went to school without knowing what to study. One of them majored in psychology and is taking a break now because it's hard to find a job.

Careers so many.. Why do I type in English where I use German and French positions of words? When I do my anthropology assignments, my teacher said she highlighted which is hard to understand.. But I understand.. Does that mean I can't do academics because my research would be too complex or not complex enough? Opposite this opposite that.. The paradox is all we are.. male female, white black, up down, left right, cold hot, pink blue, yes no, atheism theism, wrong right, broken fixed, sad happy, gay straight, materialism spirituality, liberty oppression.. etc etc etc..

It's all the same bending curving to many answers or one question.. there's the complexity in things.. multiple perspectives... agree disagree, and of course, maybe.. "I don't know" because I "Haven't decided" which can be valid.. in between is the third one.. in religions there's a holy trinity, spirit, father, son..

People try to make sense of things and their mental illness but it's just confusion.. psychiatrists are confused.. medicate with drugs that do the opposite of each other.. Life and death.. the third is the afterlife.. the opposite of that is blackness.. no afterlife.. then it continues.. sleep then wake up.. go back to sleep again.. dream while asleep.. Dreams are nonsense.. but they teach you things out of that nonsense.. and that’s what life is.. chaos and order however you feel about it based on a certain situation..