Thanks for the hug and support.
Maybe u r right and this is grief and not depression. I’m definitely mourning the loss of my old life and my 4 legged friend who was my family. How can u tell the difference between grief and depression? Or maybe u can have both? Idk. Whatever I’m feeling it feels really familiar and shiitty.

Anyway thanks for letting me vent. I feel like I have to try so hard to always be okay for my drs and friends and parents. It’s exhausting. I need to be not okay for a while without feeling like there is something I need to change.
I’m so tired and feel like while they try to supportive my friends just don’t get what it feels Like to feel so completely alone and forgotten and different and broken. I just don’t know if I want to do this anymore.
Take care.