Dear T:

Anniversaries and other yearly milestones are hard. I feel unsentimental yet tender at the places of loss. Maybe tender-hearted is more like it, but little stabby jolts of tears happens too. I am and am not comfortable with it. The unexpected nature of some of my work and the challenges it poses comes at a good time, with potential to be distracting. I marvel at my productiveness, yet know that when I slow down I am more in touch with it all, so the reverse is also true. No letup in sight until the summer, and then that has its own version of busy-ness and change.