I had an awsome time......I have found a great group of people to work my dressage training with & even a lady that lives close by who will be able to train my filly for doing dressage. she is the one that organized this trainer to come & give clinics every 2 months along with another trainer that gives clinics the other month. This group of people get together & take a trip with their horses every fall & spring to something like a horse camp......a 4 star horse camp....lol.....but as a group, it is financially doable. They have invited me to participate with them

It was so exciting to hear everything the trainer was saying & showing the riders & how he was working with the horses......I was seeing all the training I have had come to life again. I have been away from my dressage training for several years now & I today....really reinforced how much I miss it & how much I am missing my horses.

I have to say....my filly who is now 3 1/2 years old & over 17 hands high (she is huge)....is a bit intimidating....but I have to keep in mind how caring she is of me & protective when she thinks she might have hurt me......so the bond between us is what I need to hold stronger in my mind than the fact of how huge she is & how intimidating that can be....especially riding a baby horse.

Everything about Kentucky is so right in my life......everything about being here alone is so right also......it gives me a chance to see things as they really are without all the garbage that was around me. It is amazing how peaceful life can be when it's the right thing going on around you.....even the rough things turn out good.

I can honestly say that in all my 55 years of life....I have never been happier, more at peace with my life & the decisions I am making, & (I know this isn't the spiritual forum) but I have never had a stronger feeling of how God is truely in control of my life & guiding everything that is going on....I am able to see His answers to the WHY's for so many things.....there are many things that will never have the WHY's answered, but there are finally many that are.

Being alone & not fighting all the time, gives my mind time to think through everything & run through the possibilities of how to get the divorce going immediately with the refi & not having to wait until the house sells. It's a wonderful feeling knowing there is going to be an end to all the crap I have been going through.

Debbie