Mickey,

with this very post you have showed us and to yourself too that you CAN talk, share your issues and your feelings. YOU CAN. you already did it!

of course you couldnt keep it all bottled inside. you did very well by sharing it here. i'll say it again, im SO proud of you!

maybe your T isnt a good match for you. maybe you could try with someone else. as someone here said, i think its normal for you to be unable to share much with your parents though.

As for this being your fault, i dont believe its so simple. maybe its your way of making sense of your feelings, but your fault, no.
You just havent found the right people. its not so easy to make good friendships at school or at university. and most people of your age is so dumb. you are very sensitive and loving and caring and brilliant. it might make it difficult for you to make friendships and socialize, but its definately a point in your favor, not against you. it will help you finding the right people.

i dont understand why you feel like by talking you'd humiliate yourself. can you explain it? really. PLEASE.
you know you are not judged here. thats what maybe helped you opeing up. what about your T? do you feel like he/she is judging you?

you ARE strong, you are. being sensitive as you are in this world, takes a lot of courage. sharing your feelings here has taken a lot of courage too. you ARE strong. and you CAN do it. you can do whaterver you want actually.

you are suffering from loneliness a lot. im so sorry about that. but you can do something about it. its not the only thing you'll experience in your life. unless you isolate yourself. finding new friends is easier if you are open to meeting new people and just throw yourself in, without judging yourself too much. the only one judging you is you. try not to care too much about what others think of you. only you know you. only you know your story. what others think is not as relevant as what YOU think of yourself.

im so glad you have found this forum and you can share here and help others and let others help you. maybe it can alleviate a bit your loneliness. and help you finding your path in life.

keep talking. the more you talk the more you'll be able to be aware of whats hurting you and you'll be able to do something about it. you'll find a way. if you want to.

take this in. you CAN be honest, you CAN ask for help, you CAN talk about your feelings and thoughts. you CAN. you did it.

i do want to be around you. i cant do it physically, but im here. we are here. we all love and care about you so much. you're such a gentle loving person. you do deserve all the best and i hope we can help you even if just a little bit, as you always help us here. we are happy if we can help you even just by listening. we are here for you. we love you. keep talking. i mean it. KEEP TALKING. you said you want to work on yourself. great! keep talking!!!!

Lots of love,