How morbid. How insulting to those of us over 50. My best years thus far were my forties and this 52nd year is shaping up to be a fabulous one.
Please don't sell yourself short are the words that come to mind. How unfortunate you should think this way.
What more can I say? There is a sense of freedom that comes with middle age. I am no longer pressured to look a certain way. At 30 I felt I still was required to look 19. At 40 I felt pressured to maintain a youthful appearance and be impossibly slender. Now at 50 I feel a liberation from that pressure to conform. There is freedom from other mindsets too. Essentially I am free to be who I want to be and my worries about judgement are starting to subside. I still have my moments but it is easier to hold my head up high in a crowd. My relationships have improved with age too.
I feel for you that you see no value in getting older. Self-doubt must be strong. Am I correct in that there are some self-worth and self esteem troubles in your life?