Thank you all so much for listening to me, guys You're all wonderful people. I don't deserve all of this support from all of you. Thank you so much. Your posts and your kindness almost makes me cry. I guess I'm just afraid I'll be judged for my problems. Perhaps I don't want to betray other people's trust. They believe in me, they believe I'm strong, but I'm not, and I'm afraid to tell them the truth I'm afraid to disappont my parents, my T, everyone. I'd have to admit that I'm a failure. It's just so hard for me. Perhaps I'm just discouraged and I'm convinced things won't get any better. Things haven't been working out for now. Pehraps they won't work out in the future as well. I'm just so tired. I'm tired of hiding and running away. But the alternative scares me so much. I'm so sorry if I'm being such a loser or such a whiny person. Thank you all so much for being here for me. You deserve all the love and kindness of the world. You're all wonderful people. Sending many hugs to everyone