((((((((( Mickey )))))))))
You aren’t a loser or a whiny person, you’ve helped me so many times and I hope I can help you a bit as well. You don’t judge others, and you deserve not to be judged.. I think that is how life is supposed to work
(It hasn’t always worked that way for me but life sucks sometimes )

Things not having worked out in the past is absolutely not a predictor of how things will work out in the present or future. It shows that you’re a wonderful, empathic person that you’re concerned about disappointing people. I hope that some day you’ll see that you’re a wonderful and strong person and that you’ll one day find the happiness you so much deserve. Until then I’m here for you