Something got dredged up in yesterday's session, an event involving my husband from long ago that was so painful and fills me with shame. We talked about it, I cried a lot. I left session and sobbed in the car on the way back to work. I thought I could just power through and went back into work but ended up crying at my desk for another hour until I gave up and left. Before I left, I sent an email to my therapist saying I was in a lot of pain and I wished he could comfort me but I know he can't. I feel kind of stupid for telling him that. I went home, ate some comfort ice cream, got an email response that was okay but feel kind of mixed emotions about, and fell asleep for a few hours. Of course then I had trouble falling asleep last night because of the nap. I hoped that after some sleep I would feel at least a little better about things, but I still feel incredibly down today.