I understand how you feel, Humpty Dumpty I completely agree with what Fuzzybear has already wisely said better than I ever could. It's not your fault. You're a wonderful person. Please don't give up. You're NOT a coward. You're a strong person who's doing his best to survive. That makes you VERY strong, much stronger than you believe. Please don't be so hard on yourself. I'm so sorry doctors haven't been helpful to you. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve some day. You deserve it. You don't deserve to suffer like this. I hope things will get better soon for you. Please don't give up. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We'll listen to what you have to say. We all care about you here. We all love you here. We won't judge you here. I promise you that. Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Humpty Dumpty. You're a strong wonderful person. You don't deserve to go through all of this