Well... I think I have a lot of love and support to give...

I do try to be there for people.

To be honest I don’t really relate much to this post as I do consider the world to be rather a terrible place. Far too much hate, far too much indifference... but I haven’t completely given up on the idea of love and support, although I’ve found far too many people irl who have given me exactly the opposite. So in a sense I’m jaded, as you used to be.

I do relate to being very quiet and reclusive through most of my childhood.

My suicidal thoughts have increased during the past few years...

Thanks for sharing. I often don’t use words, or I go through phases of not using
words, so here is my not particularly well thought out reply. I judge myself for my words (I was taught well by dysfunctional “teachers” since early cub hood )

I feel like scrapping this post. (I’ll try to “do better” if I reply to another post using words )