I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Life dancer It seems like your anxiety is affecting you a lot. Unfortunately you have no way to knwo if he's truly the right person for you. The only way to know that is to spend some time with him and see how it goes from there. Perhaps your anxiety will disappear gradually. Perhaps you'll feel the same way or you'll feel even more anxous than before and in that case you need to be honest with him and with yourself about this relationship. Are you working on yourself right now? Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'd suggest to just wait a little bit until you meet him in person and see how it goes from there. Even if it doesn't work out, it's not your fault. Perhaps he just wasn't the right match. It can happen. Or maybe you don't feel ready yet for a relationship. There's nothing to be ashamed of. Please don't give up. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Life dancer. You're a strong, wonderful person