Mouse,

I just got finished trying to describe the manic processing I do at times. And then I read your post and WHEW! It feels very similar. Personally, I don't think I'm as far along as you because underneath, I don't think T actually likes me. I think of him really as a mental health professional who is somehow helping me not be be crazy.

So, to like yourself, I guess you need a model of someone who you believe really likes you. I'm still working on that part. I used to feel that he liked me and I turned into a love vampire, as you so aptly describe. Then we had all these ruptures and disagreements. So, now I feel like he's just a nice guy who is doing his job.

I'm happy your seed is planted and you will water it with T! I look forward to the time when I can do the same.

Peace