Thanks Mulan
Yes I think the family of origin ... I don’t know.. emotionally deprived, maybe. Almost certainly NPD
Papa bear does find me “too much” and too emotional sometimes. He needs a lot of quiet time
The maternal unit told an abusive boyfriend I had to shack up with as I had nowhere to live I was an “emotional drain”.. thanks “mum”
I thought mothers had something called maternal instinct. I’m sure most do, but as I was “always” a bad paws I deserved the blame, shame and rejections
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Originally Posted by mulan
Just be yourself. Its not easy, but don't be embarased. Be yourself, be to much. Show your feelings and be true to who you are it may seem to much and it hurts.
You are smart enough to understand if people are like you. Choose people who are emotional too and share.
I am sharing little by little with people I like from work, I won't tell my sister I am sharing with them, she is emotionaly deprived and she doesn't understands my needs.
I feel like a borderline in need for attention. But I decided I need the attention for now. Its hard I admit, but I am trying with all my strenghts not to care.
Anyway, just my piece of advice. For me is right I have been thinking about this a lot. My therapist might find it strange, but I have to heal somehow.
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