What suths my spirit is to know I can take care of me (with many doubts sometimes), that I tried to be myself and suddenly everybody seems to like me and my thinking is right many times (although I dought it).
My emotional depriving sister drains me. I was trying to be emotional around her and she ignored me and told me to shut up once again. When I listen to her over and over even when I am not interested and I have other things to do. I told her to check up on that and that she made me sad.