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Originally Posted by mulan
Mother hitted me if I choosed different clothes from what she wanted. Mother never gave me any emotional support. Father gave me emotional support but suddenly had rage attacks and got me naked to hit me, so it didn't show up. I was hitted every single day: for crying for making to much noise, for not eating everything, for not wanting to go to church. I parentalized my parents, my mother and my father, but wanted emotional support and all I thought about at the time was it was my fault, they weren't well. I was my father's confident at seven because I was the most smart and he was of course my idol (wrong me). And mother just wanted me to succeed at school, she might didn't praise me if I succeeded, but at least did not criticised me. And don't get me started on my older messed up sister, whom I followed everywere.
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I was verbally battered when I bought one item of clothing... these were financially well off people. Insane...
It was my fault my mother was depressed as I had “ruined” her life..
the PU’s serial affairs from very early on in the marriage had nothing to do with her mental state
I don’t think either of them knew what emotional support was. But they knew to label me as “emotionally immature”
The PU kept a mistress and a boat.. I didn’t know of this or maybe I did? He was my idol in a sense too when I was little (wrong me too..)
I wasn’t praised when I succeeded.. but I wasn’t blamed. It was “expected” that I’d get a scholarship for university.. otherwise I wasn’t allowed to go, eventually that was got around, don’t get me started on that. The parental units paid nothing towards it as I wasn’t training to be a medic as the PU had wanted.
I was hit too as a cub