Miss charlotte, yes a model...who'd funk thats what we need...I guess it also begins to blow away my politics of "I'll do it myself" it seems we do need others ..

Mckell, "deserve" is a word I used yesterday also...its like peeling back the layers of denial and seeling that underneath I dont really deserve to be loved...and where does this come from?.....these questions lead one back to real memorys eventually, the moments when one is frozen with shame when a smile isn't noticed or a cry isn't consoled...