I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Humpty Dumpty Please keep writing here if it helps. You're NOT whining, you're just venting! These are serious issues you're dealing with, after all. Anyone would want to vent, so that's totally understandable. Please don't be so hard to yourself. You don't HAVE to read the other posts if it's making you feel worse. It's great that you want to help people, but you don't have to neglect yourself! Trust me when I say that you're doing a lot by making these relatable threads, like this thread has already shown. Keep doing that if it helps you! You're a strong, wonderful person. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. Keep fighting. I'm glad you're here with us on PC. I hope it helps a little bit. Anything that may help you. Do you have a support system in your life? Any friends or family member that you could reach out to? What do you like to do in your free time? Anything that may help you. Please don't give up. Try to hang on. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Humpty Dumpty. You don't deserve to suffer at all. You're a strong, wonderful person