I have no idea what is wrong with you, but I can try to thank you for supporting me. What you tell me, my professors tell me also.

You can always find a girlfriend. You're young, you're 20. You've like twenty years to spend your life trying to find a girlfriend and still be young.

Same goes for socializing and having friends. I don't have many either, but none of it matters, friends come and go. It's you, and also God, who's with you always.

You don't like anything, you're disinterested, you're bored? It may be a childhood issue... you'll find something you enjoy.

By your posts, it sounds like you're depressed. Illness never speaks the truth, never the 100% absolute truth. Things are either a stretch or a complete lie.

Can I predict your future? No, but as you've always told me, "Things can get better.."

I am so sorry if all of this does not appeal to you, but that's all I can say to try to help you.

Remember, you're also smart. Cause honestly my professors who have a PhD tell me the same things you do.