thats how it feels right now...and its not scary exactly its like all the ways I've thought before are not standing up to anything anymore...all the ways I've reacted are loosing their grip...its like all the parts of me are leaking out all over the place...the hiding places are being taken away....like in the sci-fi films where the aliens are being destroyed..like in war of the worlds when the tri-pods can't survive in the earths atmosphere.....there's an *I* watching this silently happening but powerless to do anything and not wanting to ...not sure who will rise out of the pile at the end...