I start work at 2pm-10pm and my mom starts work at 3pm-11pm. She's the manager and will tell me to stop studying. Addiction is the least of my worries. It's my school course that I'm focused on. I don't feel happy when I can't pursue my future and addiction could hinder that slightly but I'm too focused on my future to let it get in the way so addiction is definitely going to fade out like it did before.. I was just upset about how the other students have more experience than me so I go down into a hole.. but I can step out easily... I just want to not ruin my life.. and I'm so hard on myself and self critical.. like everything is worse than it actually is.. but I look on the bright side more and more as time goes on and I'm away from my step dad and that isolated town.. I don't feel the need to feel like I shouldn't exist...

Just the responsibility clashes with what I want to do and what I think is right with my morals and people expect me to be like everyone else and be normal and sweep spotless floors.. I can't stand that.. how can anyone? Their state of mind is better than mine.. I'm searching for more in life.. I know that life is worth living but I have to make the right choices...

Everyone is addicted to something.. the fabric of society is what holds us together in some twisted way and psychosis is losing touch with that reality.. The percentage of people with psychosis will be greater in the future as technology advances..