Oh L. I'm in a place now where I'm still thinking about you/our therapy relationship and wanting so much to talk to you, to tell you why I can't come back, to be able to say goodbye. It feels wrong somehow for me to just disappear without explanation after 7+ years. I'd put this in an email to you except you'd likely ignore it as you did that last one and that would hurt too much so I won't. Maybe I'll just write it in an actual letter-letter and mail it. Of course you'd ignore that too, but it's different than with email. Sigh.