Oh man, been fighting a loosing battle all day! Typical Saturday until H came home 6hrs early from work and clearly miffed about it. The vehicle he uses for work is broken down again, it has been going on 4 months of... and H rattles off all the reasons why it inconviences him to not have HIS work vehicle... now, mind you, work still needs to be done so work provides him with another vehicle just not HIS... I am going on a year without any vehicle and 6mo without a kitchen... Every. Single. Time. I open my mouth today T came out or started to... yeh... not going to be pretty in my house for a while. THEN... MY browser history shows up on H phone H starts seeing all the stuff I have been reading and looking at about T.

Meanwhile... in a state far away T is visiting one of his grandkids... last session we talked a lot about all the love and attention I did not get as an infant-child. T had to explain that a lot of different kinds of interactions (ie skin to skin contact) were normal and necessary for infant emotional development... until I was too overwhelmed and borderline triggered by the idea of so much touch. So I know, somewhere in this far away state T is doting on a grandkid he hasn’t seen in a while and doing all those things he said I should have received as a child... and I am here going ICK!

This is going to be an interesting week. Any pocket riders available with REALLY long arms that can slap a hand over my mouth when T starts coming out?