Thank you for sharing. This is what this forum in particular is for I think, being able to talk about our hurts without fear of being judged or offered advice like “go and volunteer somewhere”) (which I think most of us have probably either done already or .. well it isn’t “the solution” ) .. These are very deep hurts you’re talking about ... I have deep hurts too which I haven’t been able to talk about some aspects of them (they aren’t easy to explain sometimes .. even to me...). It is hard to put one paw in front of the other when family in particular have .. been so abandoning. We’re here for you in this forum