Thanks. IOP would not be a good setting for me in this state. It would chew up my days anyway too. I have been like this years ago when going through severe PTSD and mixed states together. A combination of things helped and kept me safe most of the time. Sometimes I am just too out of control to have the ability to use the skills to bring myself down. This is where I was at today and it is very dangerous. As I can be fine some of the time it would feel weird going IP. In reality I just don't want to go. I want my freedom, have things to do, and secretly want to be able to totally lose control alone. I am guessing my T will ask me to make an appointment with my pdoc and go from there.