I’m so worried that the back surgery is not going to work. I can’t live my life like this. I’m in too much pain to walk very far. I haven’t left my house all weekend because I’m in too much pain. I’m worried about being out somewhere and then not being able to make it back to my car. I went for an airway check on Friday to make sure they are able to get the breathing tube down my throat for the surgery and it was torture. I barely made it into and out of the place. I’m so scared that all this is permanent even though my dr has assured me I will get some pain relief after he releases the nerve. I’m just so worried. Plus I’m terrified of surgery. I always have been. I’m so scared to go through with it. But I don’t have a choice at this point.

I am just worried is all.