I am not holding you responsible for the abuse and neglect you experienced from other people. I believe you needed help and were failed and no teacher or Adult or even pier reached out and helped you. It's understandable that you would feel so much anger like you do because of that too. It is awful to experience abuse and suffer and no one steps up to help you. Other members here can relate to what that feels like. Yes, that can lead to the kind of anger you are venting here.