T, I wish you could believe me when I say you aren’t going to trigger me... ok, not by anything you do with me. Today I’m triggered by the thoughts of what you are doing this week. I don’t like thinking about you like that... like where my mind goes, not your actual actions. Today you are getting transference from N. T and it sucks because you know N. T so I feel guarded talking to you. N. T was always worried I would talk ***** about her outside of session. T, I’m afraid I am letting you down, that I am not being a good enough client. T, this week I went exploring about you... now it’s like you are suddenly in 3D. I saw you through someone else’s eyes, someone a lot like me just not a client. I didn’t expect us to be so similar but now I understand some of the looks you give me. Now I know you are being real with me and authentic. Tonight I want to sleep on the couch in your waiting room, close but not too close... and because it reminds me of home. T, can you stay home for a while? Can I see you every week and sometimes twice when I am feeling shaky?