My T is in the process of changing offices and redecorating with all new furniture. I wasn't thrilled with the current room - this is our 5th relocation since I started working with her. 3 of them were with old clinic. There, one room was home and I miss the filing cabinet and able to look out the window. Another room was doable and I was able to adjust it to have an enclosed secure space. I miss that a lot. The other room was really bad. The move to private practice has more negativity based on all I lost and what little I feel like I gained. The room itself is not horrible and we've done a lot here. However, I rarely felt like I had a space of safety. On Thursday, I saw the new space with the majority of the furniture in it. I hate the new furniture and the lay out. I completely feel unsafe by the arrangement and am dreading the move. For now, she still has a lot of openness because of being between spaces, not everything moved up. I'm still allowed to use the current space. However, she's made it clear that I'm pretty much the only one still using the current space. Once she finally says it's time, I'm planning on not using her existing arrangement if I can let myself do what my heart wants to do. Then again, I know I'm setting myself up for eventual pains when I am redirected to her arrangement.

I really don't know what I'm going to do.