So, last session T asked me a question which I didn't really know how to answer but I felt pressure to answer which made me quite nervous and anxious. T noticed I wasn't breathing much and tried to get me to take some deep breaths. She asked me what I was feeling in my chest and stomach and she had her hands on her own chest and stomach when she asked me these questions. I don't know why but the whole thing was sooo uncomfortable and cringy to me. I felt especially uncomfortable when she asked what I was feeling in my stomach and she kind of "jiggled" her own stomach with her hand (I don't know how to explain it). I think it has a lot to do with how much I hate my own body (especially my stomach). T is tall and slender whereas I'm short and in my opinion chubby having gained 10kg over the past few years and I find my body so disgusting.

I don't know, I just really hated this last session and I'm wondering if this is even the right T for me. It was only the third session so I'm still unsure. Maybe I'm just comparing her to one of my previous T's who I was instantly attached to.