Yes this! Regret has been a hard part in struggling with my loss. I wish so badly I'd done things differently in the last session, although he gave me what I wanted with it.

I am sorry for the loss, it's hard and I am assuming you are gonna be like me and cut off contact for a few years, which is even worse. If you need to see someone else, even short term, to deal with the grief, that is ok

I'm sorry this is happening but I hope you can make it the best session for you