I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear I understand what you mean. It's hard to fight when we're struggling to find purpose with our lives. It's very hard. But we have to keep fighting. There are good things in life and we deserve to experience them all! We must try not to throw everything away. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. Please don't give up. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Fuzzybear. Please don't give up. You're a strong, wonderful bear. We all believe in you. We're all rooting for you