Hope so, but I am so darn chicken; lol.

I guess facing all of this scares me to death. (not the best way to put that). What my doctor said to me really hit me hard. And I had got so mad at him, we were arguing terribly, but he is right.

I was making excuses to not deal with this. And at first I denied this but he is right. He said in his heart he never believed that I want to die. He is right or I would not be here would I?

I hate this anxiety though....yucky. Worse things in life I suppose.

Justy