Some things I purposely do not mention to my T or my psych doctor because I feel like it would just start arguments and get me into trouble. One of these things is that I drink weight loss shakes when I really don’t need to. Another is that I’ll drink a lot of caffeine and then I’ll need a Xanax afterwards. I never mentioned it to my doctors that I got my learners permit. I’m also going cold turkey off my topamax and then going back on it in a couple weeks to see if I can jumpstart the effects of it since I think I became immune to it.

I do trust my therapists and doctors for the most part. But I do think some things are best left unsaid. This is just how I feel. I’ve gotten in trouble before and when I asked what I did wrong people’s answers have been “you were too honest.” So I’m just careful now with what I say.