(((HALLIE))). I am sorry for your loss. I hope you can accept help from your therapist that nothing that happened is your fault, and you have nothing to feel guilty about. Your father was the adult and you were a minor and not expected to play the role of an adult, and take on all the family problems, or guilt of the probblems not turning out as you had anticipated. Take care (((HALLLIE))). Pm anytime. Soidhonia