Survived last night. T tomorrow and pdoc Thursday. Went for a swim early morning. The highlight of my day. Downhill from there as the anxiety and wild eyes grow. 4.30 pm now. Drinking. At my parents though so won’t get away with getting drunk without a fight. Sometimes I feel like I’m exaggerating the situation. Other times I’m walking a very dangerous path. I’m overwhelmed basically and struggle to cope healthily. In fact I don’t want to. I’m so over this s***. Not sure what to say to my T and pdoc as I want some help but don’t want to be hospitalised. If they knew the full story I’m IP. Still, I feel I have a chance to calm down OP given the right treatment. Now to deal with the worst part of the day.
Hope everyone is ok.