OP...... how do you know you’ll even make it to 50 ? I’ve felt the same way many others have said. You can age physically but mentally stay young. In a way that kinda sucks because you can’t physically do what your mind wants to !
I found mentalization , ( staying in the moment) , helps get me through.
I don’t want to think about certain past occurrences and I certainly can’t foresee the future. (Possible trigger: I just want to say one thing about suicide . I didn’t create myself so what gives me the right to end myself prior to nature’s calling ?)
Sometimes you just have to plug along in life. Sometimes YOU have to make good things happen.
Wishing you the best, in the NOW !